Today

so i stared this journal since my old journal site seemed to go downhill, and i remember hearing about this from somewhere. does it matter? no..

i need a new beginning, and one that i can write in, where others don't know me, so i can try to actually figure shit out.

i've been back in boston for about 2 to 3 weeks. i don't know how i feel about it yet. at first when i got back i hated it, and i just wanted to go back to la. now that i've been back for a bit and sort of reconnected with people i care about...i hate la. i feel like i started to become superficial. i started to want new things, new clothes. i wanted to drive everywhere as opposed to walking (not that you CAN walk anywhere in la.) i don't know..gah... either way...

i sort of like this font.

been trying to get my room set up. i've suddenly started to despise drugs, so i've been staying away from them for the most part. my roommates are pretty much all stoners, so when i first got back i smoked a few times, and then remembed how much i hate it, i don't get jack shit done and i get really panicky and stressed and think think think about nothing. so i havn't smoked at all this week. i barely smoked at all in la, and i just think i'm better not on drugs...i wish i could do them though, i feel so out of the loop sometimes, like i'm so hard on myself...i can't just chill out.

so yes..tonight i have actually been unpacking instead of looking at the boxes and pretending that i am.

i'm gonna try to figure out the settings on this journal.

till then,
L