ugh...i drank too much last night...or tonight i guess it was.

it's about 6 am and i just woke up with the crazy thirst/gotta pee craving. i hadn't really wanted to go out, but everyone was going to see some live jazz, so i went along. afterward we went to some party, but i wasn't really feeling very social, so i spent most of my time on the floor on kitchen on the phone with p. there was no one in there, and i was talking to him about europe.

i've decided that i really want to go this summer. i don't know where i'll get the cash...

i was going to call my sister and ask her if she would want to go backpacking with me. she's really the only person i'd want to go with. even if we fought i know that i'd still love her. plus i think it'd be really good for her, and me.

if not that, then there is a volunteer program i have been looking into. you go to other countries and do work in social, nature, or arts work. it's about three weeks a program and you can do a couple at a time, so when you are done with one you go directly to another so you can spend some time traveling. i really have to look into it more, but it sounds amazing. and it's pretty cheap too.

blah...i feel like crap..gotta go.

L