yeah

no matter how far i wander, the spell i'm under..i'll always come back to you..

whatever. jealousy has welled up inside me. so much that my eyes can't see. it's stupid really. but i think about you..in the pictures. i'll kill you. jealousy. i'm the one who put you there in the first place. i could have saved your life. and then you go take over mine. it shouldn't matter. but it does. in my head i'll remain happy for you, but in my heart i want to rip it out of your skull.

what does it matter? i might never go back there anyways. it IS your life now. you can choose what you want to do with it. i think alot about it. i try to imagine myself in other places. there is so much to see of life. i can't have this. how does one gain the money or the time for these instances. fuck you.

fuck everything.

i just really had to get that out.

jealousy.