onward

seeing him with her was ridiculously hard tonight.
it's ok. i talked with andy about it.
he told me that i need one boyfriend, someone who cares no matter what.
i told him i trust no one.
i love sarah.
both sarahs.
makes me sad.
i thought i might go back, but i probably won't.
on it goes.
i can hear them laughing.
it doesn't matter.
make it better.
make it real.
make it stop.

just make it what i need.