ribbons and bows.

my god.. why am i awake? i'm so sleepy.
my house is crawling with people right now - but i don't want to see anyone.
fuck.
it's spring. spring = spring fever.
i hate spring fever.
it's so...frustrating..

my cd player is soo busted. i've been using the one from the kitchen. it sucks even more.
snore*

i have exactly three weeks left of undergrad. *gulp.*
i have no gameplan.
rach says i don't need a gameplan.
i think my computer is on the way out.
sometimes the screen flickers in a way that makes me think it has a virus.
but when i do virus scans nothing happens.
does it matter?
papers.
presentations.
stupid final adv video crap.
matt.
sex.
love.
financial deficit.

you've got alot of nerve.
why do you lie about yourself?
therapy on wednesday.
photoshop.
i have been majorly dehydrated. i keep drinking and drinking and drinking but to no avail.
i should really write this paper before i sleep.
i just want to know that one day there will be this amazing person who i will actually care about, and they'll respect my hoops. they'll find me amazing in every way. they'll admire me. i'll want to be surrounded by flowers all the time. even with this. it just won't matter anymore. or they'll already know about it. imagine?

patience, larisa.
i need a long long long massage.