you only love me cuz i'm leaving.

i don't think i ever realized that this was going to be so hard.


i hate when i show my male friends hooping pictures and they say stuff like, "sexy tights." the man that looks at my hooping pictures and says something like, "they're beautiful," or "look at that angle," or "look at that skill," i will marry.

you only love me cuz i'm leaving.



this is the beginning of a new era. a new place. a new time. a new face.


i didn't know that i wouldn't be able to sleep.
i didn't know that i'd feel so sick.
i guess i've been blocking it out all this time.
i forgot what i was and found it again.
i hope i can hold it up at work tomorrow.

and then to meet my mom.

i can't seem to stop crying. onward.
and out.
and more,
though..no less..

and one day i'll move on too.



x