man...
i just suddenly got so depressed. i was looking at a friends photo album online -- a friend in LA -- and suddenly i felt it so bad. i want to be there, i wanted to be back there, i just wanted to be anywhere but here. i wanted to be a place where everything was new, and everyone loved me because i was the cute new face. i wanted to be everywhere, i wanted to be everything.

i was trying to make this hoop, but i disliked it for some reason...my heart was in a bad place. do i start over? do i go to bed?

i've got to meet this guy in the morning.
then therapy. then work.

sometimes i just want things to slow down for awhile.