today sucked for everyone.

m.d. rear ended someone and busted up his car.
i started my new job and my fucking boss kept touching me. not sexual, but like. what. the. fuck.
you don't touch people you don't know.
so i came home and started drinking.
go larisa.

skipped will's party.
can't deal.
i'm totally in love with the wrong person.

dear you,
sometimes. i feel like i want to spend the rest of my life with you. sometimes i feel like you're the only one i want to spend time with. the resources i have. i want to give them to you. all of it. i just want happiness. i don't know what i want.
fuck.
everything.
you talk and i listen. but i talk more. and i don't want it to be that way. because. i just want to listen to you.
and i just want a hug.
and i never want to shower again.
just to cover myself all up in glitter.
and silver body paint.
and think for today, l says. think for today and don't worry about tomorrow.
live in the fucking moment.

my feet reek.
i hate it.

all.

forever.

and now.

larisa