i really like the fact that no one knows about this journal. my rememory a couple of people knew about..but this one..NO ONE. i feel like it gives me more freedom to talk about what i want to. or maybe less...i don't know...whatever.

i somehow had the whole weekend off of work and i spent both nights going out and getting mildly drunk. i feel sort of dissapointed in myself. i never like how my body feels after drinking. so i just took some aspirin and a klono and now i'm waiting for it to kick in so i can go to bed. that's another thing. i can never sleep after i drink. i'm up all freakin' night.

been getting sort of depressed about what to do after graduation. my parents had given my sister some money when she graduated, but since it cost so much for me to go to LA for the semester, i don't think they are going to give me any. i guess i really can't blame them, they are certainly broke..
but i was sort of counting on some cash so i can travel and do stuff. i don't know. maybe i am a spoiled brat..

pills maybe kicking in..