taped a show tonight. temporary piercings. blood was running down her body. i was more calm than i expected. she's going to make me a bandana with a sketch of my vagina on it. life is good. wrote a cover letter today and worked on a resume for a harvard job. trying to remain postive. it helps when i'm surrounded by art.

perhaps off to bed, perhaps not.
what was my name again?
friends may be lost, .. or not.

i'm gonna miss karen. but i plan on visting her. she looked me right in the eyes and said, "i love you." then she kissed me just so softly, and then my face was in her neck and i was crying, stroking her hair and she said, "we're gonna be just awesome, all of us." i looked at her ..said,
"i just want to be fabulous."
oh - you are, she says. she talks of my energy, how it radiates.. does it? do i see it?

whatever.

things will work out.
because that's just what happens.

night.