woke up this moring with a feeling of self loathing.
is there a way to get back to myself?
what am i doing?
where am i going?
why is this all so hard?
you say it's hard for you.
maybe different things are hard for each of us.
i think i want a boyfriend.
a partner.
someone to stand by my side.
someone where i don't have to worry if they are going to run off.
someone where it's ok that my insecurites take over my life sometimes.
someone who is kind.
and patient.
and loving.
and understands what's going on in this head of mine.

oh well.