i'm a little lonely today. been trying to get ready to do some laundry for a long time now. but i'm just so tired that i can barely get out of bed. blah. i also need some quarters. yeah. alot of them. blah. anyways. it's about 10am on a wednesday morning. j just left the house to get some stuff for his film shoot. md's in germany, and m just left for work. i just took a shower and my long dark hair (previously stained pink) is everywhere.
i miss you and love you so much.
d called on the phone. i'm sure he wants to discuss some stuff that went down the other night as i lay weeping, tripping my brains out, and he ....what the hell was he saying anyways? something about wanting me in any way he could have me, and i got confused and started crying because i claimed i didn't know the difference between sex and rape anymore and he was trying to explain. long skirts, corset top, the ground beneath us was itchy because it was supposed to resemble an old graveyard. i couldn't make sense of up or down and i'd been drinking as well so the whole situation was a bit hazy. he offered to ride me home on his motor bike but i was confused so just got a ride home with a. he called me the next day and i avoided his call until last night when i called him back and got a message.
i guess we'll talk about all this someday.
right now i'm gonna lay down with my cat.
larisa~