BOOM.

why hello mr. thunderstorm! you have officially derailed my plans to go to the bookstore. the hardware store. and trader joes. what up?

i found out about this book called "cunt" that i really want to read. i don't know what's going on with me lately but i am girl obsessed. i'm scared i'm turning into one of those man hating crazy lesbians. but then again, i don't hate men. in fact, ryan is coming over. i think. he called me from some train stop to say something or other. i wish he let me know because i'm naked and that would be weird, say, if he rang the doorbell right about now.

but yes, about girls. rah! what's going on?? i want it alllllllll the time. girls girls girls girls. i feel so....dykey. and then i got a copy of bay windows and was like all down with it. in public. i really need to become more comfortable in myself.

i had all these nightmares last night. it was pretty bogus. but i woke up and i just wanted to paint paint paint.

alot of my dreams last night were about old friends. lost friends. friends that i'm no longer friends with for some reason or another. christy was there too....but it wasn't really christy. it was someone who was supposed to be her in dream form, but when i looked and it wasn't her, i became disinterested really fast.


but yes.

suddenly i've become so...feminist.
i've been so.....ragey. not outwardly so. but i find myself angry alot. angry at patriarchy. angry at homophobia.
it's everywhere.
this dude at my work tried to bond with me over gay bashing.
and trans bashing!
i was like what the fuck, do you even know who you are talking to?
crazy.


looks like the rain might be stopping.
cunt! cunt! cunt!


well, my original plan was to go and buy the "not for tourists guide to san francisco" because YES, I AM GOING.



ooooooo lordy.


on the way i might visit miss lacey in minneapolis, and ms christy in okc.

but we'll see, won't we?



over
and out.