i've been learning so much about myself lately. about what i want and how i want to live.
how i am living now is not idealy it.
however... i've been thinking alot about my jobs, and i am sort of ok with that.
i get good benefits at harvard (free classes, half off subway pass, make my own hours, neat people) and the museum (tips, can charm my boss into almost anything, pretty much decide my days to work, good hours)
I do want more....
I want to make more art.
i reaaaaaally need a studio space.
i bought 10 rolls of 120 film today. exciting!!!!
vivid color.
i want to learn
screenprinting
steciling
more about painting.
i wish there were more art classes at harvard......sigh............
i am taking spanish next semester.
i guess i am learning alot.
oh dear.
i need more queer friends.
i just put an ad on planet out.
i need more friends i can connect with in total.
was thinking about j tonight as we watched a movie...i am so bad.
but i realllly wanted him to kiss me and do other...things...
i'm just so horny...i wish the last girl i was dating could have just been chill and not into spending the rest of her life with me.
whatever ....
i should sleep.
xxx