i need more queer girlfriends. ladies i can talk with, not just fuck. friends. real friends.

i found out another of my high school buddies died of a heroin overdose. another one. i am very glad that i moved out of my hometown and have gotten to where i am now. i may have my own struggles, but at least i'm not booting heroin.

i wonder how many more calls i'll get like this. another person i spent childhood with gone.

i've been hula hooping again. i need to start a regular yoga regime.

been thinking of going to school for public health. i'd really like to focus on something glbt. sex education maybe? i'd like to use my video art and other mediums to actually help people. because whenever i make art for myself i feel...empty, lost, alone.

we'll see.

my ideas seem to change from week to week.

xox