sweetness, i just wanna walk around although at the moment i think it's just me ..

for some reason i'm extremely excited today. i got a call from curtis last night saying that he got on tony danza's valentine's day show, so he is off to new york on monday to date all these girls on tv. i couldn't stop laughing when he told me. i can't wait to see him on tv!!! ahh! then we sat on the phone for hours and reminised. spelling? oh well. he said he wants to get me pregnant. i'm gonna go and meet him for lunch today. i fucking adore curtis. for reals.

also. i took the myers briggs personality test. it told me that i am an infp. but now i keep wondering if that's correct. hm.

nix wondering - stressing!!!!! is it right, is it wrong?? does it matter??!

new life goal, i have decided that i want to be a teacher. maybe an english teacher. for the first grade. we'll see how long this lasts. or goes rather.

i had the weirdest dream last night where i got this new boyfriend, and then we were gonna have sex or whatever, but his penis was like a pencil and he kept saying "my penis is small," which i thought was weird, cuz i've never had someone like..admit this..so he put on this weird ceramic thing (sort of like...a bowl??) that was supposed to be "safe" and make it bigger, and then he put a lambskin condom over that and it hurt like a bitch. what a fucked up weird dream...i don't even know if it counts as a sex dream..it was just weird...

i've actually been having really weird dreams. most are about bread, rats, and being late in various ways. what's going on here?

went out with ralphie last night. got food. excellent. had some white russians. we went back to his house and played music on his computer. had screwdrivers. went and met his friend for yet another drink. it was ok cuz i spaced it out over the night. but i was getting warm and i gave ralphie some stupid look and he was like "what" but he knew so i freaked out and ran out into the snow - it was so pretty!!! - but like, gah i'm stupid. i don't know how i feel ...i shouldn't drag others into this..sometimes i think my hormones run my life..i just really like kissing...gah, i'm such a girl, such a little little girl.

moving on..

oh, crapity...i gotta take some pictures for school.

i think i might go and do the yoga tape right now.

yaaaaay life!

larisa