fix me now (i wish you would)

dear jenessa ann,
i miss you. a whole lot. i listened to garbage at a friend's house tonight. there's the song that goes, "fix me now i wish you would bring me back to life." how i wish i had the power. to. bring you back to life. jenessa.
it's been so long, yet hardly any time seems to have passed. what would you look like now? would your hair still be long, dark? would you have bangs? a lot of makeup? highlights? what would your clothes look like? what would be your style? what would you think when you came over to my apartment? my own apartment. what would your apartment look like? where would you be working? what would you be doing? what would be your hobbies? your boyfriend?
jenessa ann, you've become a blip on the radar. once here, soon gone. a lone lovely blip that only we can remember. would you have saved the world?
jenessa ann, so long i've wanted to say goodbye to you. so long i waited for you to rise up from that grave. purple. mangled. i wanted to look you in the eyes one last time and say, "goodbye jenessa."
we never had that liberty, we never had that time. i knew who you were the moment we last said goodbye and then you were gone forever.
jenessa.
i just want you to know that i love you.



larisa~