on a plain.

it's become pretty obvious to me that i have no idea what's going on or what i'm doing.

i work a part time job and i'm looking for another part time job. i have no intention of getting a full time job anytime soon. so on i got taking these vitamins as a substitute for health insurance.
j's been talking about moving to nyc. we just started doing video work together. can i do it without him? do i even want to?
it's also become obvious to me that i want to be an artist.
i want to go to art school.
i want to be respected amongst my peers.
i know all this shit takes time.
i'm just so impatient.

taylor just called me up .. wanting to come over and 'hula hoop.' later, taylor, later - i said, i'm logging footage right now. i'm doing work. tells me later that he's taken some e and is rolling pretty hard. well, then...of course he wants to come over. i'm disgusted with the state of humanity.


i want to be able to do this on my own.

j, i love you.



i'm gonna call p back .. looks like i might be taking a trip to LA. over and out.




larisa~