with your feet in the air and your head on the ground.

i'm seeing this new councelor for free, she's a rape crisis councelor and she's fucking awesome. she is putting a list together for me of phone numbers of free care clinics in the area. she wants to help me get my persciption filled. she wants to help me find a cheap gyno so i can get my yearly. she is so nice to me and doesn't think i'm a loser, and i don't feel like she is judging me, like my current therapist.

i am excited to think that i may have a chance in this world, and that i may get better.

i so want to get better, and yes. it is taking me a long time to get my shit together. but once i do things are going to be great.

seriously.