I've been reading "Feeling Good" and trying to feel better about everything.

And I guess I do, but I sort of don't. I feel very stuck in many ways -- in my way of life, my way of thinking.

Just got a guitar teacher maybe, she's in town for the summer, goes to Smith in the fall. She sounds way older and cooler than me and she's 18. How does that shit happen?

I've got to fill out my health forms and clean up my room.

I've got to get on it, get all of this shit out of here. I dream that I'll feel better when all this shit I don't need is gone...but will I?


Hm......