i think i remember someone telling me that i'm supposed to care.
well, then why don't i?
this is stupid.
i'm not sure what i wanted to write about.
my sister gave me these pictures a while ago ...pictures we took when she came and visited me in california. somehow they got stuck together, and i was struggling to get them apart without ruining the pictures....and suddenly both of us were staring back at me.... me.. tan..so happy.. her .. smiling back.
was i as happy as i remember in california?
or was it just a change of pace?
what was my name again?

not making it to burning man this year hit me suddenly a few weeks ago.
i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish.
something will happen, right?

no no no, i need to to make it happen on my own.

i don't miss it as much as i should.
you were a bad friend anyways.
justifying?
maybe.

heaven's not too far away.
make this work.
i've got to get this shit together.

out for now.

L