called duncan tonight to ask him some questions about an IQ test. he was sort of weird, questioning me about how i am, and how to make best of a relationship with me ... he also called me sweetie and
i don't know. what have i gotten myself into? we're so not compatable in that way.
anyways,
so - my greatest fears have been warrented. i took an IQ test today online and scrored an 85. my ideal jobs as listed were food service. now, i always feared i was stupid, and i have people tell me all the time how i'm so bright and blah blah blah, and i've known all along that i'm really not. i'm just really good at portraying what seems to be smart. fuck.
anyways.
talked with j on the phone today. he went skiing. i miss him loads right now, but in other ways not so much. i don't miss having him on my mind every second, but i do miss his smile and the way he's so goddamn sweet to me, and how he lets me talk and talk about nothing and everything, and his forgetfulness.

to be continued...