oh my god, so i bought this dress on ebay last week and it came in the mail today and fits perfect! so awesome! it's borderline ridiculous. blue with a black mesh over it and all these sequins on the bottom. and it was only like 8bux plus shipping.
bad ass!
so we're having a party here tonight but i didn't invite anyone. oops. i just haven't been in much of a party mood. i think i'm actually going to go with j to his film screening (for moral support, as he says) and that ends at 10pm, so maybe when we get back here i'll feel like ... being crazy..
i don't know.
i don't really care, and i feel bad because i know that m really wants to have a party ... i'm just so ...
in my own space right now. and i don't really feel like seeing anyone. also... some of m's friends are a bit obnoxious, and there's bound to be a bunch of coke around and i really hate it when there's coke in the house.
people just get so ridiculous and overimportant feeling.

i've been longing to cut my hair. it's pretty long, for me. i've got a really tiny face and it's sort of overwheling both my face and my body. i'd love to get a really cute a-line chin cut... but it's so scary! first, i think you actually need to style those, and i really don't style anything....also, i think i tend to hide behind my long hair. i feel like it's like a blanket of security. it also helps me feel feminine. alot of guys have been like, "nooo, don't cut your hair, sure sure, it wil look nice short, but it's so nice and loooooong."
it really bugs me. what, am i not as feminine if i have short hair? why do i let others opinions of the world get to me?
i've got my period like a motherfucking hemmorage. all day its been aspirin and heating pads.
get better get better get better just get out of me fast.
it's so hot in my house that i fear death by dehydration.


i'm gonna go do something else now.
cheers.*