nights like this.

it's nights like this where i keep checking my phone to see if anyone's called. but no one has.

i'm not sure who i consider a friend anymore.
and i get freaked out, because i feel like i'm wasting my life.
i feel like i should want to go out on weekend nights, and lately i've been really out of shape about it .. like i feel like a big loser.
and tomorrow is friday and i'm already freaking out.
larisa, you loser.


i sort of just want to get married because then i could lay on the couch with someone and not have to worry about me being a loser.
who set these standards anyways?






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