today i found out another close friend of mine got engaged. i also found out that one of my best friends in the world found cysts on the inside and outsides of her ovaries. i don't even know what to say to make it better.

it makes me look at the whole world different. who am i to be so bitchy and concerned with myself when there are so many good things and bad things going on to other people? i know that right now i'm stuck in a rut -- my relationship with my best friend has changed in a major way -- but at least i know he's still there, he still loves me, and i bet he always will. i went to break up with joshua and he broke up with me, it was marlvelous, beautiful, fantastical. although part of me was wishing i could have a relationship, i'm glad that he realized that it's not the right time and that we are going to continue being marvelous friends.







dear world,
please be ok.
there are so many people rooting for you.
make the planets align.
make everything safe and sound.
dear world,
please be there for me.





love,
larisa.